Making Time for Art

 TITLE: Sea Change. The Original Painting and Prints are available in my etsy shop.

I'm feeling WAY too busy lately. Of course, the perfectionista in me wants to implement everything I'm learning in my Flying Lessons class right away.But too much business, and my creative side feels squelched. I thought cleaning my studio might help and then the wonderful sunshine, but still, I'm left feeling like even my beloved time in the studio painting is just another task.

I'm well aware that it's NO good for me to battle my creative self and tell her how to create. So I decided that this week I would actually set a schedule and allow for solid blocks of time to play in the studio (YAY! Super Exciting, right?).

 But then, I got called in for jury duty. I felt crushed. This was going to be my get caught up on Flying Lessons and play in the studio week! And when one little thing like jury duty throws me off, I know I must already be feeling way too overwhelmed, (and covering it up well). 

 TITLE: Comfort. The Original Painting and Prints are available in my etsy shop.

Luckily (SO LUCKY), I only had to spend a few hours in the courtroom yesterday. But my reaction, "How am I ever going to find the time for it all!" rang loud and clear. I know, something must go. I'm not sure exactly what that will be or how it will happen. But being aware and admitting it makes me feel lighter.

I got out my list of goals and divided my long term goals into short term tasks that don't feel so overwhelming. More importantly, I added a list of lifestyle goals. These included my passions, my commitment to living a creative life, and all of my reasons for why I'm doing everything I do in the first place! Being in the courtroom really made me appreciate my life and the decisions I make. It made me remember why I work so hard everyday to run my creative business. I'm remembering not everything needs to be done right now. That I can ask for help and maybe even hire help. And, I definitely need to take more time to paint and make it a real priority. But not in a task-master way. In a joyful, super loving and nourishing way. Creating makes me feel my best. I'm remembering I must honor that and give it the place in my life it absolutely deserves.